Jeff joined me for
another day full of doctors’ appointments.
I met with my plastic surgeon and had the last of my “fillers.” My expanders are very much expanded. The next step will be the rest of
reconstruction surgery. I will have the
surgery after chemo so we are looking at some time mid-May. I am excited to get that operation done. Once again, the doctor has said that my
breasts are “healing beautifully”. I’m
glad he thinks so because they still look pretty beat up to me, but he’s the
expert. I also had chemotherapy this
afternoon. I started my new drug
treatment, Taxol. So far so good, but I
have learned that side effects can hit any time. I will be going weekly from here on out. Jeff and I were pretty emotional today. Maybe because we have not had a full day of
appointments in a while. Maybe because
we hadn’t been out just the two of us in a while. It reminded me of when this all started and
our life was suddenly overwhelmingly full of appointments and new
information. We drove by the Breast
Center on our way to one of the doctors’ offices and I found myself tearing up. That was where it all started; the mammogram
and ultrasound and anxiety. It was a
reminder of just how much my life has changed since that one innocent visit. Before that day I was just a regular 32 year
old living my life just being a mom, working full time, and going to grad
school. It’s so crazy to think about how
fast things can change. I miss that
life. I hope to get it back someday, but
right now it seems so long ago I had it and such a distant dream of ever having
it back.
Looking
on the Bright Side…I’m so glad I have Jeff with me through all of this and I’m
also glad I was able to have a good excuse to drop the class - Functional
Analysis of Challenging Behaviors. This
class was stressing me out even before I found the lump.
chemo cycle #5
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