Time

Time is a concept that can be difficult for children and adults.  I remember being a kid and the drive to my maternal grandparents’ house (20 miles away) seemed to take forever.  Waiting for one of the most anticipated days of my life to finally arrive took so devastatingly long I thought it would kill me, but finally getting the “New Kids On The Block” cassette tape was totally worth the wait.  Spending 45 minutes at the dentist feels a lot longer than 45 minutes having coffee with a friend.  Time can be deceiving.  A couple of people just recently commented to me that the last eight weeks of chemotherapy “have gone by fast.”  It was really an innocent comment and they quickly acknowledged that it is easy for them to say that as they are not living it day to day.  I told them that the last eight weeks have not gone by fast at all for me.  In fact, they have been painfully slow and it doesn’t help knowing that I still have 12 weeks to go!  It’s really weird how time works, or how our perception of time works.  Some days drag and other days fly by, yet they are both equally 24 hours.  I am learning to embrace every day, those that feel long and those that feel short and those that are still spent anticipating another “New Kids On The Block” album.

Looking on the Bright Side…in the grand scheme of things, I’m hoping this whole experience will eventually feel like a small short bump in the road as I plan on living a long, long life!