Saturday, January 12, 2013

I Hate Chemo


I Hate Chemo - December 6th

This is not going to come as a surprise…I hate cancer, but I really hate chemo.  I know it is going to hopefully save/extend my life and I am grateful for that.  I still hate it.  I hate the way it leaves a nasty metallic taste in my mouth.  I hate the way it makes me feel nauseous.  I hate the way I feel hungry but yet totally disgusted by food.  I hate that it gives me mouth sores.  I hate that it takes away all my energy and leaves me feeling exhausted all the time.  I hate the way it blurs my vision.  I hate the bone pain.  I hate it all.  It reminds me a little bit of the first trimester of pregnancy, but a more extreme version.  The other difference is when you’re pregnant, it’s more tolerable because you know you’re body is working hard to provide for, nurture, and protect a human being.  It’s amazing.  When you’re going through chemo, your body is getting pumped full of drugs to try and destroy the damaging cells that have invaded your body.  It’s horrible.

Looking on the Bright Side…chemotherapy has actually come along way.  It is much more efficient and doctors are able to manage the side effects better than ever.  I can still hate it though…right?  I think yes!
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celebrating my 33rd birthday
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my first chemo treatment

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