Saturday, June 15, 2013

Flashbacks

Flashbacks

I was at the store the other day and had a sudden flashback moment.  Having never been a soldier at war, I feel completely unqualified to compare my cancer experience to war...so I won’t. 
I am browsing through the store and go check out the bras (sidenote – bras are so easy and fun to shop for now) when I pass by the robes.  The sensation hits me hard, I seriously find myself feeling dizzy and scared.  My body is in present time, but my brain in 7-8 months behind back to my diagnosis.  I very vividly remember being at this same store looking for robes in preparation for my bilateral mastectomy surgery knowing that I need to find clothing that I can easily get on and off using only my T-rex mobile arms.  I feel that same sense of shock that overwhelmed my every day in the beginning.  I literally have to remind myself that it is not happening all over again and I’m passed that time.  I may never want to buy a robe again.  I try to quickly pass the robe section until something catches my eye.  Oh cute, look at that robe! 
Damn you cute robes.  Can’t you see this is painful for me?  But no, I remain strong.  I have full range of motion now and I can buy any top that I want.  I no longer need to limit myself to open front, easy close garments.  I will not even consider it.  Unless it’s on sale!

Looking on the Bright Side…It is so nice to be able to wear any kind of bra I want.  IMHO, my new breasts look and feel good in all colors, styles, and support options.
 

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