I can’t help but
ask WHY? Why? Why?
Why? I realize I may never know
the answer to why I got breast cancer, but I just wonder what caused this. Is it something I ate or didn’t eat enough
of? Is it from some product I used or
didn’t use? Maybe it’s the lotion I used, maybe it’s the laundry detergent,
maybe it’s because I eat the exact same thing for breakfast and lunch every day
for months at a time? Can you get cancer
from eating too many Cheerios, peanut butter sandwiches, and cottage cheese? Maybe it was because I didn’t breastfeed my
kids up until their 2nd birthday?
Why did this happen?!?!
About a year ago I
noticed that my lips were really chapped and sensitive and eventually they
would get really puffy and bright red, and feel as though they were on
fire. I couldn’t figure out what was
going on. So, I continued to put chap
stick on them numerous times a day. When
one type of lip balm wasn’t working I would buy a new one to try. About 3 weeks and 12 various lip balms later,
I figured it out. I was allergic to lip
balm. Duh! I was just applying and applying more chap
stick, making things worse. I was unintentionally
nursing this allergic reaction.
I wonder if I did
the same thing regarding cancer. Was I
doing something that was just making things worse? Was I adding fuel to the fire? Were there signs that I should have seen? Do I like asking myself so many questions? Actually, it may be better that I don’t know
why. That would be some heavy knowledge
to have to deal with. I realize that
breast cancer is not my fault and it is not productive to spend time wondering
why I have this genetic abnormality. I’m
sure I could find more productive things to do, like organize my medicine
cabinet and lip balm drawer. I think I
will do that now.
Looking
on the Bright Side…although I can’t use it, we have a lifetime supply of lip
balm at home.
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