Residual Effects

Residual Effects

Cancer has been a crazy whirlwind of an experience.  The list of side effects has been long and overwhelming.  Having been through 9 months of treatments and being almost finished there are still a few residual effects of having been through so much. 

1.     I have been to the doctor’s office/hospital/cancer center so many times that I now automatically assume all doctors and nurses are going to want to check my breasts.  I am worried that I will accidently give my dentist and optometrist quite an eyeful.  Surprise. 

2.    I feel the need to have a doctor’s note for anything I do.  When you are going through treatment for cancer, you would be surprised at how many people won’t touch you unless you have written permission from your doctor.  Now when I go somewhere I have my oncologist sign off on it: Angie (patient) is allowed to check out books from the library.  Just in case.

3.    I make routine trips to the pharmacy because there always seems to be something there for me.  It’s like a fun new surprise at every visit.  I just never know what’s waiting for me.  It is so exhilarating to open up that CVS bag and pull out the drug.  Is it something new?  Have I had it before?  What are the side effects?  How many pills do I get in a day?  Will I need refills?  Can I pronounce the name?  Do I take it with or without food?  The excitement just doesn’t end.  Another gift for me.  You shouldn’t have!  Those pharmacists really know how to make a girl feel special.   

4.    Every time I have to fill out a new health history form I consider it a challenge.  I try to fill it all out in under 10 minutes.  When I successfully complete this challenge and I return it to the receptionist with a smug look of accomplishment on my face and she reciprocates with an “I don’t care” or “why are you looking at me like that?” look back at me.  I don’t expect a trophy or anything, although it would be nice.

5.    I have learned just how quickly life can change.  One day you’re going about your regular day and the next you can find a lump that will turn your world upside down.  I have learned to be thankful for all the things I have. 

Looking on the Bright Side…This experience has also shown me what an amazing group of people I have in my life.  The support I have received has been incredible and I will be forever grateful for that.